Today I had probably the most empowering and emotionally gratifying moment of my life and I’m pretty sure no one noticed. That’s actually the emotionally gratifying part, strangely. That I was able to actually see that the moments that hold the most weight and take up the most space in your heart should be shared with others but they don’t mean anything if they don’t primarily occur within your own self. And when I saw a glimpse of my old self today for the first time in about 7 years I regained the little bit of hope that I’d lost believing I’d ever see me again. That me is the one who has driven me to literally hundreds of late night ‘google research’ sessions - 6 different doctors, 3 false diagnoses, 2 surgical procedures (that it turns out I may not have actually needed) and about 5,000 eye rolls from people who thought I was crazy, lazy or just a big baby ☺️👼Turns out there was one thing standing between me and the answer and that was everyone else - whose judgements slowly started to make me doubt a) things would ever change and b) that I wasn’t just a whiny person who was just too tired and weak to be the person I ever was before. So - I stopped talking. I started to listen to me - that’s exactly who eventually ended up finding the answer anyways - one cause of about 16 different chronic and relentless symptoms that vary from mild to debilitating and have prevented me from healing, growing and beginning the second life I so deserve. Turns out that ‘google research’ paid off - it’s provided me with a way to get there and has actually, in effect, propelled me to write my life and finally finish my story. Because the only thing that was missing all along was my voice - “And I’ve been quiet for too long” 🗣🗣🗣 #thankfulthursday #speakup #youareenough #invisibleillness #marshmello #wedorecover #candidadiet #quotestoliveby #strongisbeautiful #runningmotivation #griefjourney #wordsofwisdom #keepgoing #traumarecovery #loveyourself #strongwomen #ptsdrecovery #fibrowarrior #fitnessjourney #mentalhealthawareness #writerslife #spoonielife #secondchances #everydaystyle #farmlife #countrygirl #bethechange #brainfog #chronicpain #interstitialcystitis
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